i should add: it continued slightly like kit and i were joking a few sentences to each other i said "ok so he's a really ugly baby - but you know, when he gets older—"
and kit laughed "—and starts breaking things—"
and i said "—and becomes a delinquent thug moron - "
and we both just started laughing in a funny despair.

my dream last night
horrible
we got rushed into having our wedding with liek one morning to prepare for it
and we were sort of part of a queue in this ugly space that didnt look anything like th epicture we'd chosen it from
and i didnt even have time to put the lovely dress id bought on or i got confused so i ended up wearing this little silver cocktail dress that looked trashy
and we sort of were pissed off still about the venue and wed run late and missed the dinner by the time we got called up and rushed in there and there were liek 3 other bridal parties crammed in the one space
so we were sort of too pissed off to pay attention and anyway the ceremony litterally consisted of "do you take this woman?" do you take this man"
and "you may kiss the bride" and we sort of missed and half our party was too far away finding seats for the lunch we'd missed anyway to see
and then i stormed away screaming i wanted a divorce (jsut so i could do it again) then someone told me married people werent eligible to renew their scholarship for a second year or something
i couldnt believe that was it and that i was married.
and i went in this little room and found the dress i wanted to wear and was about to resentfuly change into it then kit came in and i was screaming at her
next aprt of dream just a sudden jump to the future where i had this baby and i was in our garden at 21 west street and anyway there was this creepy man inside doing the floor or something and he had no chin at all, his head just sort of fell into his neck, but a sort of little cleft bum chin sitting on his neck, and he looked all skinny and weird and gross
and i was talking to kit who was disapproivng of me for something
and we strolled down the back of the yard where there was an empty aviary wnear the humpy with dead sticks in it
and it was only then when i asked kit to hold the baby
that i noticed it had the same chinless bum chin
and these weird rapist eyes.
it was so so so so so horrible.

pugilant purgarotio.

insolent inferno.

pharisaical paradiso.

an inferno inferred!

a paridise paraded!

purgatorio's purrs!

and what happens, what? when they realise that the Babel Tower *is* Mount Purgatory, and that both, that all - heaven, earth, hell, purgatory - are all in Sisyphus?

pugilant purgarotio.

insolent inferno.

pharisaical paradiso.