so i went back today, and the wine glass was still there. but it had been moved. now it was atop the other grave. and it looked less meaningful somehow, with the sunlight out.

but the glass was no longer empty.
it had filled up with rain.

Maybe this version is a bit more like a poem, but it's less like how i actually experienced it:


===

a little ancient church
sunk in its own green graven garden
in the rain
bright snatches of flowers edging the green and the stone
in the rain.

on a tombstone (or pediment)
an empty wineglass, rain-wetted
stands alone
in the rain.

beyond, or almost through it
i can see, grey, on the grinless stone
of the next little grave
the carved skull.

in the rain i stand alone
empty.


===


BTW, the stone is "grinless" because the skull was not smiling - nor frowning. it was the upper skull only, with no lower jawbone.

a little ancient church
sunk in its own green graven garden
in the rain
bright snatches of flowers edging the green and the stone
in the rain.

on a tombstone (or pediment)
an empty wineglass, rain-wetted
stands alone
in the rain.

beyond, or almost through it
i can see, grey, on the grinless stone
of the next little grave
the carved skull.

flux@thinkhaze.com
aw! hysterical sobbing! tell me more! i have ben thinking about u bunnypie!
yes it is sold!!! we are moving
my little cat is sitting on my bed miaowing at me
i went to the opera yesterday it was so supremely fabulous
sorry will start yahoo
yahoo
it's all good i just started thinking i was in the wrong place and it was all wrong and i had made a huge mistake and lonely and so on and so forth
flux@thinkhaze.com
oh it's you
i sorry i sent a message saying " yes it is sold we are moving" but it told me you didn't receive it.
how are things now?? hysyterical sobbing subsiding? why huge mistake, the culture shock?
if problems persist please COMEHOM!
yahoo
i feel much better yeah
flux@thinkhaze.com
my house is sold and we are moving, and i saw tales of hoffman at the opera it was fantastic. i wrote an essay about william morris and romanticism, now i'm trying to write an essay about the medieval morality play everyman and i hate it but it has to be in on friday.
yahoo
i dont know, walking past all the groups of ppl
did u mnow i played in a n orchestra for that opera?
the DOLL!!!!
flux@thinkhaze.com
are u finding yr niche??
yahoo
anyway : )
flux@thinkhaze.com
there is an opera called the doll?
that is so cool that you played in an orchestra for an opera
u re talented creature!!
i love opera
yahoo
no no, there's a doll in Hoffman
I playe din the orchestra for Hoffman
flux@thinkhaze.com
oh yes the dol
awesome
yahoo
but i liekd Antonia
flux@thinkhaze.com
the doll was my fav part
yahoo
i love this song she sings
flux@thinkhaze.com
i liked her too
yahoo
i only know the english words.
but i have it on m,y computer
its a fucken kickass opera
flux@thinkhaze.com
i thought it was great too
yahoo
i was going to go see it but was saving money
i fuckn love opera
cambrdige is so weird there's a "Handel Opera Society"
like all the society's ge tto a level of specificity that is just crazy
flux@thinkhaze.com
u should have seen the bit how they do the dolls in this one at the opera house, it is fantastic, we were laughing so hard
yahoo
wish i saw
flux@thinkhaze.com
are u going to start a "dollyhead dollfactory" society
are u going to start yr own society?
yahoo
lol yes
flux@thinkhaze.com
it sounds like fantastic campus life
yahoo
remember we discussed a doll company we cd start
i cant remember what it was gunna be called though
flux@thinkhaze.com
but u need to start a "dollstudies: dollpower" society.
yahoo
LOL
ok.
OK.
MORE THAN OK!!!!!!!
flux@thinkhaze.com
lol.
yahoo
i forgot it was called that
omg that was the wrongest htotest thing ever
i am gonna ebay for disembodied doll heads
and fill my room with them
like one of those 'ball rooms' at wonderland and fun parks
u put infants in
so when the cleaner comes she sees this rolling sea of powerheads.
flux@thinkhaze.com
would u be able to sleep?
yahoo
i would never be able to wake up again.
flux@thinkhaze.com
LOL.
yahoo
i would sleepwalk though the doll-land day.
lol.

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yahoo
fluxxete!!!!
i mean, fluxette!
flux@thinkhaze.com
lol i feel so glam
yahoo
: )
flux@thinkhaze.com
like a laxative!
yahoo
bunny says hello she is sitting on my computer watching me type
flux@thinkhaze.com
how are you?
yahoo
i know, can i just say
flux@thinkhaze.com
ah sweet bunny!
yahoo
for some reason i thought of laxatives too!
flux@thinkhaze.com
i am such a laxative
yahoo
"She had that kind of lean, laxative glamour."
flux@thinkhaze.com
v descriptive
yahoo
abnormal number of anorexics in cambridge actually
flux@thinkhaze.com
really!! that is scary
perverted perfectionists or something?
do u have a theory of aetiology or whatever?
yahoo
ooh sorry dunklemouse
i racked off to read an email
yeah it is SO that they are perfectonistswhen i wasnt
getting my period i read all these articles that said
the problem (as with eatin disorders) was more common
among "professional or intellectual women"
i thought
"while i'd like to think that they are just trying to
make women thik they shd go back to being breeding housewives
there is probable some truth to that."
and here, in cambridge, i see the walking proof!
and, healthily, feel no sense of envy or aspiration.
: )
flux@thinkhaze.com
i'm not surrpised but reassurred nonetheless.
yahoo
yeah neither am i surprised, but it seems to me some ULTIMATE CONFIRMATION of mental health
flux@thinkhaze.com
yeah congratulations
yahoo
ok, this from a person who spent the last few days having odd fits of hysterical sobbing but anyway
how are you marcling??
did the house sell?!!?!
tell all!!!!!!!
flux@thinkhaze.com
aw! hysterical sobbing! tell me more! i have ben thinking about u bunnypie!
yes it is sold!!! we are moving
my little cat is sitting on my bed miaowing at me
i went to the opera yesterday it was so supremely fabulous
sorry will start yahoo
yahoo
it's all good i just started thinking i was in the wrong place and it was all wrong and i had made a huge mistake and lonely and so on and so forth
flux@thinkhaze.com
oh it's you
i sorry i sent a message saying " yes it is sold we are moving" but it told me you didn't receive it.
how are things now?? hysyterical sobbing subsiding? why huge mistake, the culture shock?
if problems persist please COMEHOM!
yahoo
i feel much better yeah
flux@thinkhaze.com
my house is sold and we are moving, and i saw tales of hoffman at the opera it was fantastic. i wrote an essay about william morris and romanticism, now i'm trying to write an essay about the medieval morality play everyman and i hate it but it has to be in on friday.
yahoo
i dont know, walking past all the groups of ppl
did u mnow i played in a n orchestra for that opera?
the DOLL!!!!
flux@thinkhaze.com
are u finding yr niche??
yahoo
anyway : )
flux@thinkhaze.com
there is an opera called the doll?
that is so cool that you played in an orchestra for an opera
u re talented creature!!
i love opera
yahoo
no no, there's a doll in Hoffman
I playe din the orchestra for Hoffman
flux@thinkhaze.com
oh yes the dol
awesome
yahoo
but i liekd Antonia
flux@thinkhaze.com
the doll was my fav part
yahoo
i love this song she sings
flux@thinkhaze.com
i liked her too
yahoo
i only know the english words.
but i have it on m,y computer
its a fucken kickass opera
flux@thinkhaze.com
i thought it was great too
yahoo
i was going to go see it but was saving money
i fuckn love opera
cambrdige is so weird there's a "Handel Opera Society"
like all the society's ge tto a level of specificity that is just crazy