This Mozart story I wrote.

Because I love this idea of Wagner (or X genius) born at the wrong time and having to write the music of his historical moment and unable to write what is inside him driving him mad because the foundations haven't been laid for him to build on.

heathcliff's hooker [9:14 PM]:
is that you sleepyhead?
heathcliff's hooker [9:14 PM]:
out of bed sleepyhead
heathcliff's hooker [9:14 PM]:
i love "whimsy." wonder word. i tried to write a story based around that word once and i just corrupted it.
heathcliff's hooker [9:14 PM]:
goin invisible.
sleepyhead [9:29 PM]:
i am here! are you still here?

heathcliff's hooker [9:29 PM]:
yip

heathcliff's hooker [9:30 PM]:
love sindy

sleepyhead [9:30 PM]:
hey how's lifes
sleepyhead [9:30 PM]:
cool i think it's okay
sleepyhead [9:30 PM]:
it's limited tho
sleepyhead [9:30 PM]:
o/c
sleepyhead [9:30 PM]:
i'ts good for what it is? dunno
sleepyhead [9:30 PM]:
you corrupted it in the story?
sleepyhead [9:31 PM]:
it is a bit you know meringue castles or something i suppose
heathcliff's hooker [9:31 PM]:
what, what?

sleepyhead [9:31 PM]:
whimsy

heathcliff's hooker [9:31 PM]:
yeah exactly... this girl sunmits and assignment, and
heathcliff's hooker [9:32 PM]:
its a creative writign assignment, and her teacher writes "a delightful whimsy to this story Niccola" on it, and she's horrified.
sleepyhead [9:32 PM]:
haha

sleepyhead [9:33 PM]:
blue novelty pencil sharpeners heheh
sleepyhead [9:34 PM]:
i'm dreaming about experiemnntal techniques in brain surgery
heathcliff's hooker [9:34 PM]:
did you read?
heathcliff's hooker [9:34 PM]:
joy.
heathcliff's hooker [9:34 PM]:
do you think maybe
sleepyhead [9:34 PM]:
just now
heathcliff's hooker [9:34 PM]:
i was was inwardly punning ont he irrelevance of shit employment to you?
sleepyhead [9:35 PM]:
but eveerything is relevant! everything! shiver.

sleepyhead [9:35 PM]:
:-)
sleepyhead [9:35 PM]:
o shit that is a freaky emoticon
sleepyhead [9:36 PM]:
i hate emoticons
heathcliff's hooker [9:36 PM]:
evrything is relevant, isnt it.
i despise them. i hate it when
heathcliff's hooker [9:36 PM]:
computer converts colon bracket to face
sleepyhead [9:36 PM]:
i know, it hijacks meaning
sleepyhead [9:37 PM]:
i went to the archibald and the photography portrait whatever it is
sleepyhead [9:37 PM]:
the photography portrait is the typical nasty with, artists by artists
sleepyhead [9:37 PM]:
very upsetting
sleepyhead [9:37 PM]:
heheh
heathcliff's hooker [9:37 PM]:
it takes away nuance of your smile and replaces it with someone elses smile.
the coolon braacket is so expression-neutral.
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
winner of archibald very good
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
i agree
heathcliff's hooker [9:38 PM]:
you can populate its meaning acording to your knwoledge of the person.
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
yes that is very trues
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
*true
heathcliff's hooker [9:38 PM]:
i liek it from glances ive had. i tried to go see with george, but corwd thwarted us (first weekend it was open)
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
my smiley faces always have dahses for noses.
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
i KNOW
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
i know, it was impenetrable today
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
i decided i will go back
sleepyhead [9:38 PM]:
when the seething mass departs
i heard the most awful comments.
sleepyhead [9:39 PM]:
one woman told her male companion irritably "i scratched my pimple" and he pulled down the back o fher dress and looked at her bare back
sleepyhead [9:39 PM]:
a fat man on weaver jack "like THAT'S a portrait"
sleepyhead [9:40 PM]:
but small child i heard in parental tow
"great show i say! i say, great show!"
sleepyhead [9:40 PM]:
:- )
heathcliff's hooker [9:40 PM]:
LOL LOL
you made a poem
heathcliff's hooker [9:40 PM]:
LOL LOL LOL
heathcliff's hooker [9:41 PM]:
i wish i'd been there.
sleepyhead [9:41 PM]:
it was ogod
sleepyhead [9:42 PM]:
been rereading byatt
sleepyhead [9:42 PM]:
what u reading
heathcliff's hooker [9:42 PM]:
which?
heathcliff's hooker [9:43 PM]:
as in, which byatt?
sleepyhead [9:43 PM]:
little black book of stories
heathcliff's hooker [9:43 PM]:
me, reading nothing!
heathcliff's hooker [9:43 PM]:
was reading "the idiot" - gave itover.
sleepyhead [9:43 PM]:
unlikely scenario!
heathcliff's hooker [9:43 PM]:
read "disgrace" - so fucked.
sleepyhead [9:43 PM]:
yeah fuck that
heathcliff's hooker [9:43 PM]:
since then... just some beatrix potter!
heathcliff's hooker [9:43 PM]:
you have to read "the tale of timmy tiptoes." it changes from childhood.
sleepyhead [9:43 PM]:
i actually wrote you a paragraph describing "the life and times of michael k" or whatever it was i read i will find it for you
sleepyhead [9:43 PM]:
really how?
sleepyhead [9:43 PM]:
does adult mind molest it
heathcliff's hooker [9:44 PM]:
totally - no, no, no actually
sleepyhead [9:44 PM]:
is he a grey squirrel or somesuch
heathcliff's hooker [9:44 PM]:
no it is pre-molested. even the drawings are wrong. b-grade. and this chippy hackee guy! it's wonderufl.
heathcliff's hooker [9:44 PM]:
do u own?
yes it is, well done.
sleepyhead [9:44 PM]:
ok cool that'sa ll i remember
sleepyhead [9:45 PM]:
diod you see the one with the photograph portraits
heathcliff's hooker [9:46 PM]:
ay?
heathcliff's hooker [9:47 PM]:
no i didnt see any... only one th enews...
sleepyhead [9:47 PM]:
ok

heathcliff's hooker [9:48 PM]:
any good?
heathcliff's hooker [9:48 PM]:
i hate tv. but i need it.
sleepyhead [9:49 PM]:
can't find that fucking thing i wrote
sleepyhead [9:50 PM]:
no it was v crap. the subject of this photograph studied fine arts blah blah blah a close friend of the photographer for many years blah blah collaborated on many projects in the past blah blah blah
sleepyhead [9:50 PM]:
what do u use it for honing your critical faculties
sleepyhead [9:50 PM]:
?
heathcliff's hooker [9:50 PM]:
when you do, sne dit - id liek to hear. someone else praised that book to me.
heathcliff's hooker [9:51 PM]:
photograpyh can be qannoying - so little effort.
heathcliff's hooker [9:51 PM]:
you could do a betert portrait of you than anyone else.
heathcliff's hooker [9:51 PM]:
the following written.. you like?

moth

lost lifelorn wall moth
at rest on the plaster, large, like a wallmounted
souvenir, or a badge of courage
dark, soft, a soft barnacle
of sleeping wings, laced with eyes
and lines like spires, a gothic filagree
and tiny threads like the dipped lashes
of a child's embarrassed eyes
your dulcet chocolate dusk brown
musk-silvered iridescence, there
on the tarnished plaster. the air hangs
with cooking smells, you, perhaps
sense differently to the human beings
that occupy the sofa with their saucers
and ignore you.

he moves through mothlight
mothdark eyes meet mine, aspiring
to alight upon my kiss. in this white bed
we keep no secrets, we spread limbs
like wings, and let the television
blur away our nerves and silence with its fizz
of static (bad reception) and its noise
of American voices, dialogue, snappy, idiot,
quick-and we're undressed
and I think this is how I like you best
and the woman in heels says
this could be the end of western democracy
and vanishes into an a
sleepyhead [9:51 PM]:
i read some novel by him about this really poverty-stricken guy, who i think has a harelip, who is like a raker of leaves in a park or something. then his mother is dying and he wheels his mother in a wheelbarrow to try to get to the place where she insists she might have been born but she dies on the way so he like tips her into a ditch or something. then he goes on a strange journey of desperation and meets many psychos or sociopaths or idiots or whatever, some of whom may have been hippies. i think he ends up at the beach with some freaky woman trying to fuck him or teasing him and he bursts out laughing or wets himself? cant remember. but the whole time he hans't really eaten and then he like, profoundly transcends some sort of physical limitations or achieves enlightenment through his mental illness. it was very deep and philosophical, that is all i can remember of it. i did not understand it at all, because i am either far too borderline gifted or simply lacking in education. but i think it was widely respected and won the booker prize?
heathcliff's hooker [9:51 PM]:
and vanishes into an ad break.

moths whirl up, drop, outside
when I'm cooling myself on the street in my bathrobe and
distantly, I hear the beat, beat, beat
of someone's subwoofer, belting out the bass loop
of a hoon's confusion, beautiful
to hear the gorgeous boredom of this sound
drown in the wide grey maze of soulless houses.
sometimes I wonder if the purpose of double glazing
is to keep the sounds out or to keep them in (for privacy). many things
are like that, double adapted.
like humans moths serve no purpose. they crowd
in a flutter of flat eyelets, blinking
on the window, bellies peering through
at the light inside. they shake and shiver on the glass, and,
within, perhaps you have recovered
from the shivering that shook you
when we kissed.

heathcliff's hooker [9:52 PM]:
LOL harelip poverty...
heathcliff's hooker [9:52 PM]:
he wins the booekr for everything
heathcliff's hooker [9:52 PM]:
fuclk him. and now hes got australian citship, he'll win allt he prizes here too.
sleepyhead [9:52 PM]:
he is a strategist
sleepyhead [9:53 PM]:
will read poem now
heathcliff's hooker [9:53 PM]:
better than peter carey winnign even more though. i have never read PC btw so i cant judge, i think ppl enjoy bagging him out a lot
heathcliff's hooker [9:53 PM]:
and i liekd a para i read of ned kelly
heathcliff's hooker [9:53 PM]:
kelyl gang
sleepyhead [9:53 PM]:
oh yes god i read that
heathcliff's hooker [9:53 PM]:
yes, stragist. using language liek a job.
sleepyhead [9:53 PM]:
heheh
heathcliff's hooker [9:53 PM]:
i thought maybe u did. any good?
sleepyhead [9:54 PM]:
no it's ridiculous you can hear him all the way through
sleepyhead [9:54 PM]:
and he goes on all that stuff in the beginning pages about great editors still existing blah blah
sleepyhead [9:54 PM]:
only byatt is allowed to do that re national library or whatever haha
sleepyhead [9:55 PM]:
it's ok ned kelly character is endearing and some decent magic realist bites in it but just u can see how far short it falls or something. peter carey is there all the time that's all, it's unsuccessful
sleepyhead [9:55 PM]:
imho
heathcliff's hooker [9:56 PM]:
LOl great editors stilll existing. fucl him. fuck em all. i keep typing fuck fucl. fuck that!
heathcliff's hooker [9:57 PM]:
i would screw ned.
heathcliff's hooker [9:57 PM]:
in a brickyard only, though.
sleepyhead [9:57 PM]:
me too but he would have to shave his beard
sleepyhead [9:57 PM]:
heheh brickyard
heathcliff's hooker [9:58 PM]:
yeah! well they shaved it to hang him. sorry, foul. i would not sleep withj deathrow.
heathcliff's hooker [9:59 PM]:
i HATE capital punishment i dont care the crime. better to let victim's parents shoot you for revenge than cold institutionalised "termination."
sleepyhead [9:59 PM]:
cool poem

sleepyhead [9:59 PM]:
moths are beautiufl i think
heathcliff's hooker [9:59 PM]:
kinda old hat, the poem. but i like moth.
sleepyhead [9:59 PM]:
well i like both
heathcliff's hooker [10:00 PM]:
i didnt describe the moth though. it had yellow bee stripes on the back of its neck and red globe eyes. it could have been threatening, but it wasnt.
actually thjey werenet red eyes. it was a red bauble on its back. never seen same. quite big.
heathcliff's hooker [10:00 PM]:
glad u like.
sleepyhead [10:00 PM]:
tehy are colourful

sleepyhead [10:00 PM]:
i don't like capital punishment either
sleepyhead [10:00 PM]:
oh and i don't agree with prisons either
sleepyhead [10:01 PM]:
i don't know if i have any real rational justification of these opinions perhaps i picked them up from someone with more knowledge thani.s
sleepyhead [10:01 PM]:
i agree with flowers and rainbows
sleepyhead [10:02 PM]:
i think i told you one of my previous death fantasies getting sentenced to life imprisonment where i would be brutalised to death
heathcliff's hooker [10:03 PM]:
thats...
heathcliff's hooker [10:03 PM]:
so worrying, actually.
heathcliff's hooker [10:03 PM]:
when i was seven i had a with torture fantasy.
sleepyhead [10:03 PM]:
yes well depression selfhatred etc
sleepyhead [10:03 PM]:
really?
heathcliff's hooker [10:03 PM]:
witch, that should say.
heathcliff's hooker [10:03 PM]:
yes, i get put on this rack with a compression function. wrong for a kid, i think.
sleepyhead [10:04 PM]:
u have gt to start early if you want to achieve any thing in this life
sleepyhead [10:04 PM]:
bwahahahaha
heathcliff's hooker [10:04 PM]:
a machine to flatten my abdomen, bizarrely. SQWUAAASSH.
sleepyhead [10:04 PM]:
bad jok sorry
sleepyhead [10:04 PM]:
ow
heathcliff's hooker [10:04 PM]:
LOL. well, i've achieved flat abs!
BAD JKE SORRY.
sleepyhead [10:04 PM]:
:-)
heathcliff's hooker [10:10 PM]:
what is
sleepyhead [10:10 PM]:
??
heathcliff's hooker [10:10 PM]:
only justificaton for prison
heathcliff's hooker [10:10 PM]:
is if someone is seriously likely to dangerously reoffend.
heathcliff's hooker [10:11 PM]:
it just jams poor ppl into a loop when it/s e.g. drugs, stealing.
sleepyhead [10:11 PM]:
agree
heathcliff's hooker [10:11 PM]:
the whoel drugs thing propels itself - should decriminalise, get more control. even heroin.
sleepyhead [10:11 PM]:
but u got to keep the fuckrs down
heathcliff's hooker [10:11 PM]:
"regulate", dont criminalise.
heathcliff's hooker [10:11 PM]:
kick the shit outta them.
sleepyhead [10:11 PM]:
the boot in the face
sleepyhead [10:12 PM]:
i was overcome by flourescent lights on the bus tonight, they are cruel
sleepyhead [10:12 PM]:
and when u close your eyes and put your face down you still see them
sleepyhead [10:13 PM]:
im better tonight tho
heathcliff's hooker [10:16 PM]:
on bus? so dull though? or bright onmes?
heathcliff's hooker [10:16 PM]:
i am pretty good. a few tearful fits but brief. nearly emailed you in angst yesterday
heathcliff's hooker [10:16 PM]:
restrained self.
sleepyhead [10:16 PM]:
bright and cruel
sleepyhead [10:16 PM]:
u shouldn't worry about that!!
heathcliff's hooker [10:16 PM]:
those arent the fluros you still see. it's your own hell mouth. or your doomseye.
sleepyhead [10:16 PM]:
lol.
sleepyhead [10:17 PM]:
yeah i know
sleepyhead [10:18 PM]:
the hellmouth is v creative

sleepyhead [10:18 PM]:
cause life is v messy
heathcliff's hooker [10:18 PM]:
if your skin pores were hellmouths for bacteria. if the bacteria were afraid of them.
sleepyhead [10:19 PM]:
or something
sleepyhead [10:19 PM]:
heheh
sleepyhead [10:19 PM]:
my eyes are hellmouths for my brain
heathcliff's hooker [10:19 PM]:
yes bright and cruel.
at lawschool, in the lifts, i look so old. i hang my head but the afterimage of my reflection is in my head. grey and cruelsick.
heathcliff's hooker [10:19 PM]:
that's bad. for your brain. for your eyes.
sleepyhead [10:19 PM]:
did u know max martin wrote 4ever by the veronicas
sleepyhead [10:20 PM]:
i think there is an evil mirror on the back surface of my skul
sleepyhead [10:20 PM]:
*inside
sleepyhead [10:20 PM]:
what that poem u wrote about ur skull
sleepyhead [10:21 PM]:
omg i bought a siouxie and the banshees cd it was terrible i tried to sleep to it but it kept waking me up it was so bad
heathcliff's hooker [10:21 PM]:
my dad has one of them, im no fan. i love the word "banshees" though.
heathcliff's hooker [10:21 PM]:
what was the poem re my skull... scraping soul down off sides?
sleepyhead [10:21 PM]:
i thought i would make a good banshee
sleepyhead [10:21 PM]:
yep
sleepyhead [10:22 PM]:
i can't summon the necessary tears tho and i hate to look careworn
sleepyhead [10:22 PM]:
it is dreadful!
sleepyhead [10:22 PM]:
i have a cover of mother mother by the veronicas hahahaha
sleepyhead [10:23 PM]:
i never realise how much shit music i download
heathcliff's hooker [10:25 PM]:
really, a lot. i try not to.... i pay for it.
sleepyhead [10:25 PM]:
i am convinced that things wil lget better
heathcliff's hooker [10:25 PM]:
liek some paranoid law school weirdo.
heathcliff's hooker [10:25 PM]:
any recommendations, that will have emotional pull?
sleepyhead [10:26 PM]:
it's so difficult to find music that actually makes me emotional
sleepyhead [10:26 PM]:
i'll burn u something i hop e
heathcliff's hooker [10:26 PM]:
they help purge, forme.
sleepyhead [10:26 PM]:
i mean music that actually recognises my emotions
sleepyhead [10:26 PM]:
yep
heathcliff's hooker [10:26 PM]:
which tori amos songs are good? i have never "listened" to her.
sleepyhead [10:27 PM]:
dresden dolls album is pretty good
sleepyhead [10:27 PM]:
ok i'll burn u some tori amos
heathcliff's hooker [10:27 PM]:
yeah that sort. maybe your emotions magnet to the song and get pulled out like a beesting.
heathcliff's hooker [10:27 PM]:
hey, iamgine if the thorn actually hurt the rose. digging into its side. into the stem.